Wednesday, June 28, 2006
I wonder y i told myself to believe in miracles coz now i hav to act like i dun care...HOW DUMB COULD I BE?????? miracles nvr happen! haiz.....it seems like im getting dumber each day......juz hope tat i could pass my PSLE with flying colours n i oso hope to get into anderson sec through DSA but the application form already so hard to fill in...i really hope tat sumone could HELP ME!!!!! haiz....
8:34 AM;
i change blogskin liao coz i tink the previous one 2 bloody.......
8:31 AM;
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE IS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN TAKE IT NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At first i thought it was nothing but it isn't now,i really give up! Everything is going in the opposite direction of wat i thought it would be..nothing is going the way i want it to!first, i nvr minded. second,i thought abt it. third, i had sleepless nights. fourth,im felt miserable. fifth,im tolorated. sixth,I CAN TAKE IT NO MORE! I thought n tried but I really couldn't take it no more.Even heaven is opposing me or does it wan me to leave all tis things n STUDY? I REALLY DUNNO! i miss u! i couldn't stop thinking abt u but now wat i can tink of is hatred n misery. U lied to me! im really disapointed.......i really feeling very sad n angry now,no words can descripe. THERE R 3 "THINGS" i hate most in tis world.....how i wish i could juz destroy it! if i hav the chance,the 3 "THINGS" r going down......but most of all im really disapointed tat wat i did from the start are all gone to waste. I wonder y muz it happen to me......im juz 12,mayb tat i should study hard n put all tis behind me........its hard but tis is REALITY. I G I V E UP!(i wrote tis entry when i was VERY down n i mean VERRRRRYYYY down......)
9:23 AM;
Sunday, June 18, 2006
tell me if u wan me to change back to my previous blog...............
2:51 AM;
Friday, June 16, 2006
y did u hav to go? i asked myself tis question countless of times n i still dun hav a answer i only gt blind guesses..........i really hope i knew y but i thought i nvr knew.i even thought tat it might be better 4 her to go as im nothing n im hope tat she is happy.............n one more thing,ITS SO UNFAIR!:'( i didn't even hav teh chance to say happy birthday to her! even when tmr is her bday! im so useless.......
10:42 AM;
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
why do i nvr get wat i want? i always fail.......im such a failure.......im a freak.....im a idiot........im pathetic.........im a psycho..........im self-centered......im stupid.......im mindless........im nothing! :'( all ts i said to myself...plz tell me how many of there r true........
11:20 PM;
Monday, June 12, 2006
i always thought abt giving up loving wq but tat thought would disappear when i saw her smiling..........i really dunno wat to do....
9:00 AM;
haiz........my head aches.....so many homework undone...worrying abt exams.....my heartaches too.....i dunno y..........im suffering.........i wish i could juz die.......
8:49 AM;
Sunday, June 11, 2006
u told me tat wat u said were the truth n i trusted u........but i nvr thought tat it wasn't......i saw sumthing tat shattered my heart into many pieces........wat u told me was a lie..........i trusted u because i love u......i wonder y......my love didn't stop............sumthing juz told me tat i hav to work harder instead of giving up.....i will nvr stop...i can wait till the end of time till u accept me................Disclaimer: somebody scolded me a idiot n said tat i bottle up my feelings but i didn't.....i wrote it in my blog coz tis is the only thing i can tell......../ i actually didn't wanna write all tis as my heart aches whenever i recall wat i saw,please dun ask me wat i saw.thank you.
5:27 AM;
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
wat if ppl really invented a machine which can clone ppl? izzit tat we can clone the one we love?n stay with it 4 eva? or we can use it frame some people? if i love her den i wouldn't choose to make another copy of her as its not HER anymore! theres no point! n if i dun feel like tok abt tis...........theres another thing.....childrens can clone their parents den go to the meet the parents session so there would really be chaos if there is really a cloning device but i juz can't stop tinking abt her! i really wanna b wit her.......nvm its fate......no point........wat i can do is WAIT.....
11:04 PM;
I dun dare to tink wat will happen next.......whenever i tink abt wq...sumthing will etch my memory.....n i dun dare to tink wats next! im afraid....i dun noe y...plz HELP me!!!!!
11:02 PM;
Monday, June 05, 2006
i changed my blog skin AGAIN...i tink tat the previous one was TOOO bloody.........hope its ok......
4:06 AM;
Sunday, June 04, 2006
i dunno y..but i juz couldn't hold back my tears anymore....tis is the first time my tears fell because of her n i swear its also the last time......im not gonna shed any tears 4 her anymore.....
7:50 AM;
*yawn*i change my blogskin liao......hope u guys like it.....now very tired....n btw tis song suit tis skin or not? im tinking of changing it.....give me some comments...
7:41 AM;
Thursday, June 01, 2006
As the pain deepens in the sole i feel the penetrating heart flow to the surface of life. Im givin this great opportunity in life but stuck with the low bottomless future. I don't look for the great things hold on to, but move on to good things to forget. Who to trust leaves my mind in circles, i dont understand this long last life of mine. What am i expected to do? Im not even in the world of understanding anymore. I just want to leave all this aside and be in limbo. I can't live in this mess forever, something needs to change.......
7:45 AM;
TO may yuen: Im srry,i misuderstood u......im really srry.plz 4give me if i hurt u or anything,i take back wat i said abt u in my other entry....u r a gd girl....its juz tat i didn't c tat...IM SORRY.I hope u can for give me n can we still be frens?
5:38 AM;