Monday, September 29, 2008
LOST? Can i find any other words to describe so?...
Walking pass the cemetry i once knew, saw those wander souls just as if i was one of them... One came by and ask "Would you like to join us for eternity?"
No.. But is my life now any different from theirs? "Take my hand and we'll go down, down, down to nowhere." Reaching out for you, you din't reached out for me, you kicked me down and gave me a final farewell.
As i fell, i felt so remorseful, not because i chose to fall but cause you killed my final hope for returning to how we were. I guess you needed some space, to breathe, to see, to get some respite...
Just what are you trying to get out of this? A person who misses you and loves you just for the sake of it? Walking on and on, on the thin line that seperates hell from false truths. Where am i gonna fall? Do i really wanna know when it makes no difference?
My life revolves on, how ugly people can get, how flithy their hearts are, how screwed your life would be though no changes can be made...
STAB ME IN MY HEART! LET ME KNOW I DO HAVE ONE!
Am i still alive at the very least? Don't you enjoy hurting me on and on? WHY ARE YOU RUNNING AWAY WHEN I ASK YOU TO CLAIM MY LIFE TO LIFT ALL THE SUFFERINGS AND PAIN?
Drowning in my grieve as i stared at the trail you made...
Made a pact with the Reaper to stay with you, i hereby hand you my soul, i'll be by your side forever. Helping you whenever your in need, never expecting anything in return but an acknowledgement of my existance.
As the days goes on, my mind and heart melts along...
The sweet memories, the dire nightmares... They don't seem to make any more difference anymore.
3:27 AM;
Sunday, September 21, 2008
As the cradle of time fell,
nothing could ever tell.
I feel so lost and lonely,
even when everyone's beside me.
I'm breathing ever so hard,
trying to find my shattered heart.
As tears welled up in my eyes,
the me inside just dies...
I've forsaken my ability to speak,
people might think i'm a freak.
But never will i utter any words,
for i fear causing any more hurt.
No more sweet but empty promises,
no more talking to misses.
No more morning salutations,
no more communications...
Kevin Teo RIP Deceased on this very day 21/09/08
His funeral was held right where his heart used to be.
His soul lost forever in a world of doubts and mistrust...
5:34 AM;
DECEASED
5:00 AM;
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
How many apologies does it take?
Despite the assumptions i've make,
the answer never seems to appear.
There ain't no forgiveness i fear.
As i stare at the sins i've commited,
those thats never to be vanquished.
My suffocating mind soon went blank,
Can't help but gaze at my bloody hands.
"Trust" never fails to fail me,
It hurts to know we're never meant to be.
As i pondered on, my senses deserted me.
Whats left is only memories...
Why Is your ignorance ever so typical?
Has it ever occur to you how others feel?
If only my questions came with answers...
As always, my hatred for you gets lesser and lesser...
7:41 AM;
I knew i couldn't make it,
Since the day our eyes meet.
But i wanted to give it a try,
I just don't know what or why.
What happened to the you i knew?
The innocence thats ever so few.
A sweet face with a killer smile,
Shes the cutest, does it ring a bell?
Gave it a shot and din't regret,
even though dismay is all i get.
I asked, would i have a chance?
But now, are we even friends?
I don't mind taking another fall,
Giving all i got, cause your my all.
All i want to say is, I love you.
Even if you already long knew...
7:41 AM;
Saturday, September 13, 2008
My heart envisage surrendering to my macabre fate while the reaper gave a lurid rendition of my pathetic ending...
Spoke from the bottom of my heart as to what i'm thinking now...
Tried letting everything go just so that i can concentrate on my exams but it seems quite impossible now
6:34 AM;
