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Saturday, October 07, 2006

HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL 2006!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tats probebly how everyone feels right now but not me........last years mid autumn festival was one of the day i will always remember.....i couldn't forget how BEAUTIFUL wq was......how i wished i took a photo of it.......how i wished she wasn't gone......how i wished i knew things earlier.......HOW I WISHED I DIDN"T LET GO!!!!!!!! ='O i really regretted....i regretted many things, i regretted scolding her, i regretted blaming her, i regretted not helping her, I REALLY REGRETTED!!!!!!!!! but i couldn't turn back the clock.......im now in the mist of PSLE n im still thinking about her.......right now i will do my best 4 PSLE n i will try to tell wq tat i,without a shatter of a doubt, i love her.........i really really regretted being so paraniod........im SO SELFISH!!!!!!!!!! how i ever wished i wasn't...........today i thought tat maybe she would go to skool so i was tinking abt going to skool to find her but 3 reasons froze my legs.......ms wong said tat she didn't wan to see us there,shes preobebly stuck to the pc playing maple n last of all n worst of all........maybe he would be there so i could only watych from far while my heart keeps on bleeding...........THREE THINGS I REGRETTED MOST: 1st:hurting wq in any way 2nd:slapping cct 3rd:being so selfish...............i HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz wanna noe how she feels abt me........i could accept the cruel reality n move on but i wanna hear it from her...........there was once i asked her n she said tat i was juz a mere fren but tat wasn't wat i wanted.........well....tat was quite a long time ago...........on 14/10, at the BBQ,if she is there,i will ask her abt how she feels abt me n i hope tat she could be honest............im worrying abt her.......how will she fair 4 her PSLE?......well its up to her........i could only wish her GD LUCK! n all the best......i will always be there 4 u....juz call me n i will be there to help u......

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