Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Thursday, April 19, 2007

TODAY:
I went to skool with only with loneliness to accompany me. I was deep in my thoughts while crossing the road and i nearly gt ran down by a car...The misery was so great that even the flowers weren't spared...Each pitiful one of them wither painfully. The trees were crying and the clouds bursting into tears. It reminds me of who i used to be in pri school each time a drip of their tears touch my face. I din't regret changing, i regretted not being myself anymore...I've no more frens 2 speak of. No more loyalty,no more faith, no more trust...this world has become so grey for me. I wondered y didn't i juz take teh car head on and leave tis storage of misery u people call world...Im killing time and manslaughtering my sanity. im going nutz each passing moment...LEAVE ME ALONE. I had enough...My dying wish is juz to see her smile once more, i noe tat im worthless 2 her but i wan her to noe that her smile means everything to me.Juz cut myself on the finger unknowingly...I gazed at my blood and reflected the things i did wrong to u...i shouldn't had been a fool...im really sorry. Now i realise why can't i be the one...I know that u din't allow me to even glance at u coz u tink i was ugly, u din't allow me to tok to u too...even on msn...but i din't give up... I gave up the moment u had a stead, coz i noe its over for me...MY LOVE AIN'T WORTH A SHIT TO U RIGHT?....Im so useless... i tried to make u happy in many ways but u only showed a fake smile. Tears of blood trickled down my face when u said that the only way to make u happy was to not see u ever again...I followed it but it wasn't enough....I RATHER BE DEAD........RIP Here lies Kevin Teo Shun Keat......The goner.....I have no more frenz to relate to anymore, its juz fate. Im fated to be hated and a loner...

TO MY FRENZ: u guys should noe who im writing to
TO U: I've tried and tried hoping that u would one day accept me but i doubt that day is gonna come....

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