Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Hiash...people always say that their life sucks, its boring and some even say that they wanna end it or something liddat and that "people" doesn't exclude me...
But i kinda went through my thoughts and i kinda came out with my own defination of life...life is a period of time where u can do watever you want in this world of ours and this time is limited and you can never turn back and say that you want to be 13 again when your 30+...
Im afraid to die actually becuase the moment i die i will lose everything...you might be reincarnated but hey, will you still be u? and will you still get to know the people you know in this life?...
Im actually happy to know that if someone hates me cause i know that the "someone" knows that i exist...
In this period of time, im tryin not to bring sad memories with me cause it will only make me feel more miserable about growing up and be more aware that my time is running out...
This is my 13th year in this world and im already starting to afriad of losing everything i have now...i used to juz keep saying tat life and boring and the world is unfair to you...but i woke up to my foolishness coz you think the world is unfair to you only dun make things fair for yourself...prove yourself and dun keep complaining about LIFE coz its ur own time, either you waste it or you make use of it...
People dun really understand what does it really feel like to be bored and lonely, the real feeling is that you dun have anything to even think about and thats when your life comes to a ","....
If anybody is giving you as hard time, maybe its juz fate, juz treat it as an obstacle in life and the person who made you who u are today is testing your ability to adapt...
I juz wanna have a carefree life, i dun expect things to go my way always i juz hope...
When things dun go my way, i juz hope and try to change things for myself coz its my life and i dun wanna waste my time...
i ain't giving up my life til im satisfied bout the things i've done with my life...
Bout volleyball? i'll juz try my best and if its still not enough, i'll juz accept my role as a reserve and play carefreely and who knows? i might even enjoy it...
Thats all i have to say for now and its up to you people to agree or disagree and since its your lifes, i dun have any rights to decide...
i juz wanna say thanks my friends and family for caring and i really dun regret knowing my friends and even if they did wrong things to me...
Thats all for now~ =) bubye!!!
3:43 AM;
