Friday, August 24, 2007
Have you ever feel that you've tried very hard in doing something but you just feel that you'll never be able to complete it? Thats not the end, you felt that theres a must to do it and nothing can stop you at all?...
I have this feeling almost everyday...I can give this 2 following examples...
I tried so hard to be good enough in volleyball just to be in the main 6 and play for the school but no matter how hard i try i just feel that im not good enough...
It just feels so no right for me to give up or surrender when i still have the energy to go on and i'll try...Try means you do your best till you succeed and not just anyhow try and give up...I want to prove to myself that despite my height,I can still play better than others and will not lose out cause the word losing don't and never will exist in me...I will always try my best...
The other example is about the girl i love, it just seem so uncunning and unreachable... I tried so hard just to be the one and only one but all i can be is the one you ignore and push out the doors of your heart...Why can i never be good enough? i tried and i tried but i was treated as a fool all the time but i din't mind at all...I don't mind that you don't like me, I just want to let you know that i do and being friends is very good already for me...I don't expect, I just hope...
In my heart, you are ever so pretty and kind...Nothing can taint your ravishing beauty, not even the any act of yours...
All I ask for is for you to believe that I seriously love you wholeheartedly and nothing lesser but i could hardly talk to you and it seems like your hatred for me ain't going away and i just couldn't figure out why I can't be the one...
Whenever I talk to you, your eyes just twinkle ever so brightly like the stars that light up the night sky...
I just hope that you would understand my feelings for you because I don't have the courage to tell you face to face cause I know i ain't good enough for you...
All this shows that trying just ain't enough, i'll just have to do it despite of all the obstacles in my way...Don't tell me i ran out of time cause I don't mind waiting for you all my life...
My exam results this term ain't that good so I seriously have to buck up for SA2 and I ain't trying, I will do it for sure...and I ain't giving up...
Got to go for now...bubye all! =)
P.S. The girl i'm referring to most probably not who you think she is, only minor know who and by minor i mean 2-4 xD so in case you thought of the wrong person...=D
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