Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Monday, October 29, 2007

I often ask people why but i never try to answer their "whys"...
Okay, let me start by saying im upset and unhappy cause of some volleyball matters but mostly is because she don't talk to me like she use to, she don't chat with me like we use to, she avoids me like i don't use to, i find it hard to even just TALK to her...
Volleyball:
Feeling tired cause it seem impossible for me to get back into main 6...Ok fine, i admit that my spiking ain't that good anymore and i've been change to setter (i think) cause got too many spikers...Afraid i won't be able to set as well as the others as it has been quite sometime since i last played as setter...
Her:
Don't want to talk about the bad times. Flooding myself with the good times just to stay oblivion to the fact that shes gone already despite all that i've done... I don't regret letting her leave without stopping her but i regret not loving her enough...im such a lousy guy...I want to just pluck up my courage to confess but whenever i see her smile or whenever she talks to me i just loses all of my courage like i never had them in the first place...I can't help but to think of her sweet sweet smile...
I just wanna forget about all the bad times i had in with you but whenever i try to touch them, it hurts straight to the bones...Is it because i've hurt you too much for me to understand or their here to stay with me forever?...

All these just keeps me going...
JIAYOU! I can do it derhs...Get back into Main 6! and try to get a chance with you instead of making myself a clown in front of you again... i SWEAR i TRY...
Bubye ALL!!! TAke care during holS!! =D

7:53 AM;