Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Somebody once told me, everything lies in points of view and how you treat the happenings around you. I couldn't bring myself to agree to this at all...
Things just doesn't seem so simple when i drown myself out in my dumb jealousy.
Or another example would be, i don't do well at all for this exam despite the fact that i failed none and managed to pull my maths to a passing mark.
How many failures in life does it take to realize, somethings just don't get done or go your way no matter how hard or how many times you try? I've tried and tried but the only thing i realized was life is never fair.
Don't sweat it, theres no way my theory could be proved wrong with assholes finding every ways and means to frame and find your faults every now and then. Can't help but wonder do can they live on another moment without trying to corrupt this polluted world further.
Its just so obvious but yet i couldn't see it. I mean...How blind could i be?
Maybe things could be better if i thought of it to be just a dream... Please pinch me and tell me I'm still asleep cause i never wanna wake up...
All these lies, your stories, your words, your company, your eyes and your silliness ... All thats made you ever so unique, evil and beautiful... Why couldn't i see through this facade of it all from the start? Or was i just too obsessed in my own dreams?
If only somebody could answer all these questions so i wouldn't have to ponder over it and wonder whats next after all thats solved.
I'm confused but always for the wrong reasons, can't see things through although nothings' needed to be done. Why is it always them? Why can't i be just like them?...
The more i think of it, the worse i felt.
Words cause only express my feelings to a certain limit, those forsaken but indescribable feelings could only be left to linger causing more grieve and sadness nevertheless.
I hereby end my agony-filled post.

8:03 AM;