Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Lols i'm like kinda changing back to how i was in sec 1 sia...
Geek 101 : Black thick frames, tuck in shirt, high socks, hair flat flat, manners, courtesy, homework hand in on time and just no vulgarities...
How hard could that be? lols no kick, like real.... harder than anything i've ever imagine... Hair kena cut i diam diam, no more contacts can cry, shirt tuck out bo bian, homework never hand up on time used to it and vulgarities? Don't say den confirm is i something wrong liao....
dam man! tried telling myself it was all for her... End up trying but can't change the fact that i'm just trying to bluff myself when its really impossible....
If i were to believe that i had a chance, i might as well bang my head on the wall and tell myself its IMPOSSIBLE....
Try proving me wrong.....
Realised that many things made sense now, the fact why things never seem to work out, the fact that shes always out of my reach and the fact that things just gotten worse without a doubt...
Waited for her to chnage to online instead of busy or away, ever since early afternoon. Ends up she offlined the moment it struck 6 plus. Haish... as the days goes on, she just drifts further and further away. If you've got another guy, would you just tell me and break my forsaken heart, rather than letting it bleed to death by hanging it in painful suspense?
I can't find the right words no more, just desperately wishes she knows how im feeling now or just tell me that its gone case so i don't have to spend every everlasting minute of my life wondering am i not good enough for her, missing her and thinking bout each and everything bout her....

4:15 AM;