Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Monday, September 29, 2008

LOST? Can i find any other words to describe so?...
Walking pass the cemetry i once knew, saw those wander souls just as if i was one of them... One came by and ask "Would you like to join us for eternity?"
No.. But is my life now any different from theirs? "Take my hand and we'll go down, down, down to nowhere." Reaching out for you, you din't reached out for me, you kicked me down and gave me a final farewell.
As i fell, i felt so remorseful, not because i chose to fall but cause you killed my final hope for returning to how we were. I guess you needed some space, to breathe, to see, to get some respite...
Just what are you trying to get out of this? A person who misses you and loves you just for the sake of it? Walking on and on, on the thin line that seperates hell from false truths. Where am i gonna fall? Do i really wanna know when it makes no difference?
My life revolves on, how ugly people can get, how flithy their hearts are, how screwed your life would be though no changes can be made...
STAB ME IN MY HEART! LET ME KNOW I DO HAVE ONE!
Am i still alive at the very least? Don't you enjoy hurting me on and on? WHY ARE YOU RUNNING AWAY WHEN I ASK YOU TO CLAIM MY LIFE TO LIFT ALL THE SUFFERINGS AND PAIN?
Drowning in my grieve as i stared at the trail you made...
Made a pact with the Reaper to stay with you, i hereby hand you my soul, i'll be by your side forever. Helping you whenever your in need, never expecting anything in return but an acknowledgement of my existance.
As the days goes on, my mind and heart melts along...
The sweet memories, the dire nightmares... They don't seem to make any more difference anymore.

3:27 AM;