Your words kept me alive but took my freedom;

Friday, November 14, 2008

And I'm feeling: Lost, Cheated, Lied to, Pathetic, Hopeless, Breatheless, Helpless, Suffocated, Afraid, Restless, Worried and Going nutz.

I mean, I lost everything I could possibly lose. My life is practically over except for the fact that I'm still alive and breathing. Do people know how much a lie can hurt someone?
Who can I trust now? Nobody, nobody at all. I'm so afraid of lies that the only choice I've got is to not trust anybody anymore. Why are people so selfish? Always thinking of only themselves, never giving a thought about how others feel. I had to forsake my trust just so that I won't feel hurt no more. Empty promises, twisted lies, flithy compromises, guiltless abandon.
When people lie to me, I somehow just know the ending but din't wanna be a wet blanket. Taking the pain silently used to be one of my hobbies but I'm sick of it! I'm the gatekeeper of my own fate and destiny, thats the only thing that keeps me going on now. I'm practically a empty shell now, feeling ever so lonely... I'm breaking down, really feel like crying out loud but you won't see my tears nor hear my cries. I finally understand why my friend told me she likes walking in the rain, cause nobody would know your crying...
I can see who is by my side and who is not. Nobody is, I'm alone.

4:57 AM;