Monday, November 03, 2008
Feeling bitter,sour,sick,sweet,disgusted,confused,frustrated.
Wake up every morning wondering whats next, most of the time its just cca killing my life. Man...Dyed my hair red then black again. Don't wanna talk about it liao, spoils my mood.
Holiday anybody free PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JIO ME OUT ^^ (Pangsehers not entertained)
Pangsehed counter:16 (Just got pangsehed 1 minuete ago)
If your wondering which sub combi i've got, its...C1 a choice that made me wonder if i was dumb. Was it the right thing to have chose C1?...
Your ignorance's killing me, i swear your cold shoulder could freeze me off no prob.
LoL hols so sianz sia, whole day is wake up, watch youtube, go training, come home, makan dinner, online, SLEEP . Thats sucks man but i've made some new discoveries! =D 1.Japan animes are great time killers
2.When your bored, get a job
3.Cinema's becoming my third home
4.Friends who lie to you, F*** off =D
5.Ruki's new hairstyle DEFINITELY SUCK
6.Bimbos are better than bitches
7.Learnt how to stand properly
8.CCAs are fun sometimes, annoying when its too often
9.Red hair is nice ^^
10.Life is just knowing people and trying to forget them later
Haha try beating that, i've learnt 10 THINGS during the first part of the hols =) I'm soooo proud of myself xD Lets begin the other part of the post...
AHH!! CAN'T F***ing think straight, minds in a whirl. Whenever i see the blank space in here, i never fail to forget all that i wanna write or just scream about.
Walking down the road I once knew, saw the swings we once played, climbed the tree we once walked by everyday, sat down at the void deck i once spend my every afternoon at. I can't help but gazed at the elated children playing gleefully at the playground. Memories of my past poured into my mind, the happy ones and the sad ones. The beautiful oak tree i once saw has became nothing more than a withered and dead tree, the playground i once knew is never the less still filled with joy and laughter. It made me wonder, what happened to me?
Everything seems so dead now that i've changed. Life used to be just study, eat, sleep, watch tv, play with friends and family. Nothing else really matter back then. Now? Friends just ain't friends no more, they don't stay as one like those you knew long ago. Families all have their own things to attend to. Studies just ain't as easy as it used to be. Tv, replaced by computer, got sick of it. Eat? Thank god if i stop skipping meals. Sleeping, can't do that so often. What is life to me now? Just a time of my existance, do people even realise im here? Doesn't seem so to many.
Is it because of the choices and decisions i make? Why is the world so practical and cruel to me? Its not like i wanted things this way right? I don't wanna face reality anymore! IM SICK OF EVERYTHING, LIES,BOREDOM,DIFFICULTIES,BITCHES,RESPONSIBILITIES...
I'm so sick and tired, i wish i was dead ( I know pretty much of the whole world wish im dead too ). its just so unfair! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY? Why do the assholes always win? Why am i trying so hard to be the nice guy? What or who am i doing all these for? ITS SO SEEMS FREAKING MEANINGLESS NOW...
Whine whine whine, yea thats what i just did, nobody's gonna care nor bother about it anyway. F.Y.I SCREW THOSE LIARS WHO TOLD ME THEY WERE GOING 2S+2H AND IN THE END WENT TO 3S+2H OR 3S+1H, this just shows how hypocritical people can get, even those you think you know them well.
(Lets just say some events are better left forgotten. =D)
Don't wanna emo liao, realised its pointless... Baibye
5:40 AM;
